I have to tell you, I’m exhausted.
I’ve been adding so much of this, that, and the other thing to my daily life that I’ve just run out of room. I didn’t realize it at first because we have a pretty regular schedule that works for us and everything was fitting in okay at first. But then we went out of town recently and came back and Mr. Fix-It’s work schedule has changed temporarily and I realized that I’ve left myself no wiggle room. No flexible space. No contingency fund of time and energy.
Which all leads to the ugly battle between time for what I need to do vs time for what I want to do.
For example, I cleaned up my workshop last week before we left for vacation and I have a project list a mile long that I want to be working on. But when I get home at 6 every night I also have 4 hampers of dirty laundry, a sink full of dirty dishes, and 50 head of livestock that start bawling for food and water (literally) as soon as I turn in the driveway. Not to mention that we’re out of Captain America fruit snacks and my kids expect something for dinner every night, eventually.
I have 3 kids whom I want to spend good quality time with before school starts again, but it’s 101 degrees outside every. single. day. and they’re tired of being hot and they’re tired of being cooped up in the a/c…and I’m tired of being hot and repeating myself over and over again…and they’re bouncing off the walls (and couches and coffee tables and beds)…and making me CRAZY…So I guess what I actually want is to want to spend time with them instead of praying all evening that the house and I just survive until bedtime.
This is where the rubber meets the road for busy Christian mommas, folks. This is where everything, each thing, has to be laid out at the Lord’s feet and you have to pray, and cry, and think, and wait over each one until you know what stays and what goes. What’s only temporary and what’s really long-term. What in your control and what’s really not. What’s in His plan and what’s not.
Because here’s a few things that are never in His plan–bitter wives and grouchy mommas.
That’s as far as I’ve gotten right now.
But if you’re struggling with the same things, feel free to connect with me on Twitter to chat about it. After another cup of coffee I’m expecting things to start looking up!